Where has the time gone?

It's been a while since I've written anything new here. I actually forget I have a blog until I get notifications about it. Life seems to get in the way. Maybe not life itself but the stuff you do to occupy your mind to carry you through to the next day. Then you continue  on with this pattern until you realize just how much time has passed. I'm extremely aware I'm not getting any younger. While people around me dying solidifies this fact. I'm then faced with asking myself, am I happy? Have I achieved the goals I set for myself when I younger and more ambitious? Is it too late to make a change? Self awareness is hard. I think I'll try again tomorrow....



Playlist: Ryan Adams-Ryan Adams
Must listen to track: Am I safe

Till next time....
Michele

At It Again...

So... It's been awhile since I have update my blog but lately I have been inspired to write. I think it's because there have been a lot of changes going on in my life. Some good, some not so. Going forward, I'm going to focus more on the music side of things since it's more of my passion. Till then, keep on playing....


What I'm listening to right now: Jenny Lewis-Voyager
Must spin track: She's not me

Friday night is alright for chillin'

Hi all. Hope all is well. Have to give a shout out to DH, my damn husband, it's his birthday today! He doesn't care but I do. Why is that? Men just assume give up birthdays and holidays then celebrate them; while we insist on doing quite the opposite. Is it because of the first part of the word I used to describe their feelings on the subject in the last sentence? Ass....... Who knows how their minds work. I give up. I let him be a grump and do things my way anyway.

Elijah was a little under the weather from his shots yesterday. I think this is the worst he's ever been after getting them. I felt so sorry for him but there wasn't more I could do to help him then what I was already doing. His fever finally broke about 3 o'clock and he was good to go. Thank god. I can't stand to see him hurting and not being himself. Especially since he cant communicate and tell me exactly what he needs to feel better. It  breaks my heart. On the up side. I got a whole lot of cuddling time in. A rare event now that he can walk and run and go where ever he wishes. He thinks he's a big boy and doesn't need me anymore.

Today was a peaceful day for me. Tonight I managed to finish four really cute cards and I love each one of them. I will upload them for you to see. I'm still waiting for my chocolate to arrive. 4 orders to be exact. Man did I go overboard!!!! Oh well. I love me so scrappy chocolate. Now the scrapbooking stuff I ordered over a month ago still hasn't been sent. Its a different company then the one sending the me chocolate. They said they had an emergency and ask me to be patient (yeah right! me, now way) and I have been but I've about to reach my limit. If it wasn't for the fact they would have to send it through paypal (another battle this week) then I would go ahead and cancel. I'm trying to wait till the 4th and then we'll see what happens then. Ugh. Worst luck.

Anyway, not much going on. I will keep you posted. Comment below if you wish or follow me on pin interest.

till next time.......

Chele


Album of the day "I and Love and you"

Crazy is as crazy does

Hi all. Hope all is well with everyone. It's a crazy little life I have and it's been a crazy few days. I think crazy is my new little word. Crazy.

After the last post where I made my shopping buy. I have gone a little "crazy" and bought a few more things. oops. Oh well. I can't wait for them to get here. Why does the mail have to be so darn slow? I could go out a purchase things at a store but then where's the fun in that? As I told my husband. I like the surprise of finding something other than a bill waiting for me at the mailbox. Who wouldn't?

I did get a mail present two days ago. (mail not male, my husband wouldn't be happy about either but one didn't cost anything and the later wasn't what I got anyway, so not worries) My sister in law mailed me and Elijah a package. He got clothes and a book....boring. And I got scrapbooking stuff and two of those candles that are supposed to clean your ears out. Either I'm really blond or my hearing is really that bad. I don't think I did it right. According to EVERYONE whose ever done this you're supposed to see A LOT of nasty, gooey, yellow crap in the candle stick and that didn't happen with me. Am I the ONLY one who can screw this up? Call me crazy!

Have you ever had one of those times where you think to yourself, "Are we back in High School"? Yeah, I had one of those this week and not in a good way. Crazy!

Do you ever wish that you could follow your heart and not your head and do something you want to do consequences be damn. Yep, I want to do that. I'm sure Kristy understands. Crazy!

Explain to how you know if your heart that you have made the right decision but you question yourself everyday and cry about but there is  nothing you can do? Those in the know, DD is in 17 days, crazy huh? Who'd thought a commercial would make me cry, I know better.

I have spent the last week making and sending Halloween and fall cards to family and friends along with pictures of Elijah in them. Be on the lookout. You probably noticed by now that I changed the picture about to the one of him in the monkey hat, those are the ones I'm sending out, they are my new favorite. They are crazy cute.

So anyone do a crazy count? What am I up to? I'm going to attach some pictures of cards I've made.

Till next time.....

Chele

Song of the day "Crazy" by Patsy Cline

everything comes up fall

Hello all. It's been a while. I have been super busy and have not had time to post anything as of late. To start off I hope all is well with you. My life is crazy right now and getting crazier by the minute but I'm learning to go with the flow.

Those in the know, know the 17 is D day for me. How in the world am I supposed to stop everything for two whole weeks I don't know. It will be impossible. After having Elijah by emergency c-section I had family over for a cookout the same week. I'm not really known for taking it easy or slowing down. Hmmm, guess I'll have to learn as I go.

Next, the doctors believe it is cancer my mom has growing back but wont be sure for another 6 weeks and after they do a PET scan. So now we play the waiting game.

I did the stupidest thing last night. See, I take a sleep aid to help me sleep and last night my son woke me up shortly after I fell asleep. He refused to go back to bed so I was up for a good 3 hours. You know how you hear of people cooking, driving, walking, etc in there sleep? Well, I shop and last night was no exception. I honestly didn't mean to purchase anything but I guess I fell asleep for half a second with my cursor hovered over the "confirm your order" but when I woke up a second later it said "thank you for your order. What!!!!!!!! My husband wanted to kill me. Okay, that's a little harsh but this wasn't the first time it's happened and we are trying really hard to save money and I just spent more money on scrap booking stuff. Not happy. See, he did let me place an order with the company a day earlier so this caused me to pay $8.00 in shipping, again.

So, to try and make things a little smoother I emailed the company a short message that said something like this, "hello. I was wondering if it's possible to combine two orders I placed with your company together. See, I accidentally placed an order early this morning without knowing about it. I take medicine which makes most people sleepwalk but makes me sleep shop. I know this sounds like a crazy excuse but it's really not, just ask my husband. If the orders could be combined and shipping cost refunded I would greatly appreciated. Thank you." It worked. They threw me a bone and are helping me out. Yea!!!

I have also been busy working on making both Halloween and Fall cards. I got 4 layouts done in the last two weeks as well. I will attach. Hope you like. Have a wonderful day and happy fall. My all time favorite time of year!


Chele

Two sides to every story

Hello. How was everyones day? Mine was a crazy, lazy kind of day. It started off by me realizeing I left my car keys in my friends  yesterday and she lives on the Northside. So, when I went to grab them to head out for a delivery I couldn't even get out of the house. Aaron had to run home  from work and give me his keys to use.

After making the run North I found out that my horrible not to be spoken of episode from Easter  has been shared with EVERYONE. There are two sides to every story and it seems that my side is irrelevent. Therefore, I have choosen to cut all negative people out of my life. They are the ones chooseing to be mean, spitefull and rude to me and my son picks up on that. I want him to remain happy and free spirtited. He knows who these people are being negative because he wont let them pick him up; he cries or gives them a mean look.

On another note: those who know my family know that there are some minor to major issues. I wont go into it but tonight was one of those nights where I was reminded AGAIN how low on the todem pole I am. It's amazing how you can be the one to do everythig right but it doesn't matter. It's the one person in the family who does EVERYTHING wrong that get's all the praise. I don't get it. I will never get it. Those who know me, know what I mean. But tonight while speaking with my mother, she let me go because I critizcized my brothers flavor of the week. Come the **** on!!!  Whatever. I'm over it. She can call me when she wants to speak  me.


With the weather changing so are the leaves but that's not all.........so is my husbands attitutude. I really think it's because of the full moon but I named this past weekend "husbands being an ass weekend". Am I alone in this? Let me know.

 My husband was bitching about everything: the cost of diapers, buying toliet paper, me scrapbooking, what's for dinner, etc. REALLY?
 Friends of my had some of the same type of problems with theres.

I did manage to finish two layouts yesterday, and one the day before and I think they look really cute! Also help Step with two of hers. I have mine posted. I hope you like them.

I don't normally ask for prayers but please pray for a friend of mine name Kristy. Without going into great detail just pray that everything goes as it should be and she and her son are kept safe. Love you Kristy!!!

Song of the Day: "The Story" by Brandi Carlile

Here's to hoping tomorrow is better!
Chele

Karma is female and she's a bitch

Hello again. I don't have a whole lot to say today. It has been a rollercoaster ride of a day. The early part of the day was good. I spent the day with Steph and Gigi. I took them to my favorite consignment shop and then showed Steph how to scrapbook a few pages. It was a lot of fun. It's always nice to share your passion with someone else. We were able to get two pages done in about 2 hours. That's pretty good considering we had two babies we were trying to keep up with.

Speaking of which. Elijah is cutting his eye teeth and having a hard time doing so. I feel so bad for him. He has been waking up in the middle of the night crying for me. On the positive side he is wanting to walk independently. Okay, I said walk but it's more like run. The only problem....he's a klutz. He tripped today and hit his head on a toy and busted his lip. Poor thing. But it doesn't stop him. I sold his walker because he doesn't need it anymore.

I got some horrible news today. Actually two pieces but I'll start with the first.... They believe my mother has another tumor in her lung. For those how don't know she has been battling lung cancer for several years now. We are hoping it's just scar tissue from the chemo but we wont know for a few days.

The second set of news is really upsetting. My best friend was supposed to move up here from Georgia but due to some dumbass she's not able to. I wont go into any details but I will ask for you to keep her in your thoughts because she needs it.

I was able to sit down, calm down and do a few pages of scrapping tonight. I have them posted. Hope you like them.

Till next time.....

chele

Soundtrack: Oasis "wonderwall"